A Year Went By

A year went by
And I didn't realize
How far I've come
Or how back I've retreated

I didn't realize
Which moments were happy
And which moments
Tore me into pieces

I didn't understand
Where I was headed
I didn't understand
What was needed

I couldn't fathom
The ripples and waves
In the sea of thoughts
Decorated with forgery's laces

I couldn't bring myself
To face acceptance
I couldn't take what was happening
As my mind enjoyed a long recess

A year went by
And the pages were written upon
With rhyming words
Confusion and frustration manifested

I couldn't understand
What was real, what fiction
Right out of my head
Words were battling in races

An year went by
And I didn't realize
How the time went so fast

A year went by
And I stood still
Right up to the last

A year went by
And I stood still
With the memories that passed

A year went by
And I stood still
Torn apart.