The Mind Game

In this mind game
I play against the same colour
The pawns, the knights, the bishops
All I have isn't even mine to take over.

I battle against my friends
I battle against my foes
This battle is a babel
A confusion I cannot hold.

In shambles, I murmur
I cry in despair
I search in vain for myself
I find I'm nothing without you there.

The monster within takes over
Feeds on my fears
'Tis not a silent battle
It ends in tears.

But, have I lost? Have I lost it all?
I don't even know when the knell tolled.

Am I alive? Am I dead? I still exist, Oh Lord!
Why this punishment? Finish me once and for all!