A Father to Fill the Void?

I've never felt it and may never feel
The love of a father, a father for real.
Never in my thoughts so far had a doubt formed
Somewhere, maybe it was always there deep down.

All I want is someone who'd care
Who'd hold me in their arms and whisper,"I'm there".
A father who'd advise and share thoughts wise
A father who'd kiss my forehead and my tears wipe.

All this while I never felt I'd need him
Always believed I had everything.
And all of a sudden when I long
I'm guilty; I've questioned the love of a mother strong.

Why do I need him now?
To fill a void left cold since time long?
Or is it just an emotion-the same
Manifesting in a different form?