Broken

To the deepest valleys I shall travel
To leave behind that love
That once shone bright as a flame
Now needs to be shoved.

Up on peaks and deep in the seas
I shall leave behind those feelings
But even under illusions of height and depth
It shall still retain its meaning.

Into the dark voids I shall throw
Everything that once gave pleasure
I shall dig the ground and bury my love
A long lost treasure.

I shall vow I'll never cross your path
Never be a hindrance
I shall be numb forever
Rather than a constant annoyance.

I shall deal with the separation
In any which way I can
I shall cease to try to prove
Our love still stands a chance.

I shall cease to hear you in every wind
Try not to see your face in everyone else's
I shall never again listen to the music
Never again recite those verses.

Someday these wounds would heal
And if they never do
I promise no matter how I be
There will exist a healed you.

A slight cut, that's all it takes
To end my life in a suicidal way
I need no hope, I need no support
It's easy, isn't it?
To die in a hole.

But what's difficult is to climb out
To leave the hole through the hard way
But I need hope, I need support
It's not easy, is it?
To live as a whole.

I stood an hour in the rain

I stood an hour in the rain
My hand stretched out
But you were never going to come
Loneliness was all it was about.

I stood an hour in the rain
Drenched to my bones
But you were never going to show
Oh! I should have known.

I stood an hour in the rain
The passersby looking pityingly
I didn't even have an umbrella
The rain pouring down relentlessly.

I stood an hour in the rain
Waiting with a hope long lost
I wished you would have given a glimpse at least
If never called.

I stood an hour in the rain
And at long last you showed
When my body lay there on the streets
You took away my soul.

The only existence

I turned and looked at the barren and empty streets. There wasn't a single soul breathing. But I was so sure I'd heard you only seconds ago.

"Alexa."

I gazed down the road and saw you standing beside one of the tall Maple trees.

I started forward. But you weren't even moving. I decided you must be waiting for me so I began to run forward in your direction.

But just as I got within touch, you vanished! There wasn't even a trace of you having been there only moments ago.

I looked, once again, at the barren and empty streets to find no one.

"Am I hallucinating?" I heard me whispering to myself.

"Alexa."

Again. Loud and clear, right ahead. I saw you standing with your back to me, leaning against the old fencing. This time you'd called out loud. But you weren't even looking in my direction.

I decided I didn't care. I ran forward and stopped abruptly midway when I saw myself emerge from behind one of the Maple trees and run towards you, in the opposite direction.

You were holding out your hand towards me and I held it, then we embraced and you pulled my face up to kiss my forehead.

I turned from the sight. The sight of us together. We were happy. And, more importantly, we were together.

I could touch the warm drops pouring out of my eyes, slowly.

We existed.

But only in my delusions.