A slight cut, that's all it takes
To end my life in a suicidal way
I need no hope, I need no support
It's easy, isn't it?
To die in a hole.

But what's difficult is to climb out
To leave the hole through the hard way
But I need hope, I need support
It's not easy, is it?
To live as a whole.

I stood an hour in the rain

I stood an hour in the rain
My hand stretched out
But you were never going to come
Loneliness was all it was about.

I stood an hour in the rain
Drenched to my bones
But you were never going to show
Oh! I should have known.

I stood an hour in the rain
The passersby looking pityingly
I didn't even have an umbrella
The rain pouring down relentlessly.

I stood an hour in the rain
Waiting with a hope long lost
I wished you would have given a glimpse at least
If never called.

I stood an hour in the rain
And at long last you showed
When my body lay there on the streets
You took away my soul.

The only existence

I turned and looked at the barren and empty streets. There wasn't a single soul breathing. But I was so sure I'd heard you only seconds ago.

"Alexa."

I gazed down the road and saw you standing beside one of the tall Maple trees.

I started forward. But you weren't even moving. I decided you must be waiting for me so I began to run forward in your direction.

But just as I got within touch, you vanished! There wasn't even a trace of you having been there only moments ago.

I looked, once again, at the barren and empty streets to find no one.

"Am I hallucinating?" I heard me whispering to myself.

"Alexa."

Again. Loud and clear, right ahead. I saw you standing with your back to me, leaning against the old fencing. This time you'd called out loud. But you weren't even looking in my direction.

I decided I didn't care. I ran forward and stopped abruptly midway when I saw myself emerge from behind one of the Maple trees and run towards you, in the opposite direction.

You were holding out your hand towards me and I held it, then we embraced and you pulled my face up to kiss my forehead.

I turned from the sight. The sight of us together. We were happy. And, more importantly, we were together.

I could touch the warm drops pouring out of my eyes, slowly.

We existed.

But only in my delusions.

Nostalgic

Here I sit with the late afternoon breeze
A cup of tea right before me
I think of you and all those moments
That were filled with love and ecstasy

I'm reminded of your voice
The soft whisper of a nightingale in disguise
The sharp intakes of breath
The lone melody in a babel of noise

I'm reminded of those endless nights
When I couldn't get myself to sleep right
When reality was far better than fantasy
When our love was the guiding light

I'm reminded of how suddenly it all vanished
How the love between us remained famished
Slowly the tears start welling up
As promises taken tarnish

I'm left with a vestige called friendship
The saviour in the hardship
I'm not alone,
And yet my heart's ripped

I still sit here with the late afternoon breeze
Reminiscing moments that were for keeps
Moments containing you and me
That were filled with love and ecstasy

And I'm nostalgic.